“You gotta resurrect the deep pain within you and give it a place to live that’s not within your body. Let it live in art. Let it live in writing. Let it live in music. Let it be devoured by building brighter connections. Your body is not a coffin for pain to be buried in. Put it somewhere else.“

I have been working on creating a backlog of digital content for the past month focused on food and wellness – and while I am truly excited about scheduling and publishing everything that have been working on – I have decided that I’m going to push back my release date by a week in honor of myself, my healing and learning how to hold space for myself and others when I’m struggling to do so for myself.

So, November 1, 2022, was a lot.

I had gone to bed the night before kind of devastated that I’d lost a job that I thought was a really great fit for me. However, a lesson I’ve learned is that one must always navigate to where one is valued. So, while feeling the sadness that came along with a decision that I felt was unfair, I respected the decision and had decided to keep it moving. That sadness shifted this morning when I first saw reports of Davido and his wife having lost their three-year-old. Trust me, I don’t know him or his wife from anywhere, but I felt it. I felt it deeply. Then shortly after that, news of Takeoff, a member of Migos, an Atlanta-based rap group having been shot and killed hit my Instagram feed and it just became a lot.

There was so much pain inside me that it just spent all day spilling out of my eyeballs – and I had to learn to sit with it so I don’t pass it on. It’s a lot and it’s felt very lonely. I consider myself lucky that in the depths of that pain, I had family and friends to lean on and just listen – and in those moments they provided space for me, I realised that I had space to provide for them, which I returned. It’s quite humbling, this thing called ‘Life’.

The next few days I will be just sitting with what I’m feeling and continuing to prepare for the release next week. I’m re-evaluating the content I want to publish. I want to go deeper and sometimes that requires taking a hard look internally at what it is that I want to represent and embody. Standing firmly in my truth, in the grace and wisdom of G-d, in my purpose, and in every lesson I’ve had the blessing to learn along the way… that is what I wish to publish here and the last day has really taught me the importance of staying true to yourself.

Thank you for your patience and let’s spread love.

We deserve it.