There is a lot of discourse around healing at the moment and it’s not difficult to understand why. As a collective, humanity has been suffering. En mass. The discourse around healing has reached the forefront of the global conversation now because it is not just the general population that is suffering. Now, the 1% and their offspring are feeling the consequences of just not caring. It’s a hard pill to swallow, but the truth of the matter is, we all have our pills (truth) to swallow (and accept).

But what happens after acceptance? For me, two things occurred. I decided to change the way I viewed my life (that is, how I saw myself, how I saw others in relation to myself, and how I thought about my actions and the actions of others). This led me to subsequently act from that new perspective. Has this been easy? Hell no. It has been extremely challenging because a lot of people had been invested in the broken version of me.

I might not have broken myself, but as an adult, I took on the responsibility to change what was done to me. Even within my healing, I have acknowledged that those that broke me as a child, probably had the same things (or worse!) done to them. However, in changing myself, those that formerly used me a as a scape goat (among other things) no longer could engage in their own broken ways of existing and have been forced to reckon with the lies and deceit they engaged in. Trust me. This process is not for the faint hearted because another lesson I have learned is that a desperate person will resort to desperate measures unless they stop themselves – and this is why the truth is so powerful. It speaks for itself.

Anything built on a bed of lies, deceit, manipulation will eventually crumble, and we see this going on around us. People scrambling to dissociate with things that they have benefitted from (and are usually also a victim of) in order to save themselves and begin their process of healing (i.e. living their authentic truth and building something that is valuable to society and doesn’t destroy it) is humbling to watch.

I’m 38 years old now and looking back on my life, I wonder how I could have allowed myself to be asleep for so long. Well, it was because I was trained from a very young age to put everyone before myself and as a child, I was actively ignored and tolerated. Love was only given after I had successfully complete a task that was assigned. And let me be very clear about this. It wasn’t only love that was breadcrumbed, but my reputation. So long as I fell in line with what my abusers wanted, I was a great daughter, highly prized and all the other good things, but as soon as I stepped away, a bunch of negative things found their way to those around me and people would treat me differently (often to do with my mental health and how people should be ‘careful’ around me). I would be ostracised.

Hurt so much by this, I would run back to my abusers for ‘comfort’ – even though I knew deep down that they were the ones responsible for the pain. Once, they told me proudly how they created problems so that they could present themselves as a solution. I was a teenager when I heard that so I couldn’t stay true to my instinct and run (though, I did try twice, but was brought back). The result of trying to get away for my own peace of mind was the be labelled a ‘runner’ and to ensure that I could never escape their grasp, I have always been breadcrumbed financially as a result.

Breaking these cycles and closing these chapters in one’s life is never easy, but it is necessary if you want to live a life you can look back on and be proud of. It is usually a battle that you fight alone, even though you are not alone. The funny thing is, the same thing has happened to millions out there and we are beginning to speak up for those that are afraid to do so.

Personally, I’m not afraid (many attempts have already been made on my life and I’m still here). What is done in the dark ALWAYS comes to light, whether you like it or not. This is a hard truth about life and it’s useful to remember when you’re making decisions as you go about your day.

No one is exempt from this. The destruction of a life (any life) because of personal or collective gain sows a seed so poisonous that it destroys the hand that plants it as well as the soil you plant it in. You cannot escape it. You have to rectify it, but you can only do so once you have washed the poison from your own hands, and if you are unable (or unwilling) to do so, then you must humble yourself and bow out so those that are able can clear up the mess can do so.

This for me is what makes healing so difficult: admitting to yourself and to others what you did and how it has affected you (and them) and then taking steps to remedy the damage and mess made.

How does one remedy the damage? There is no one blanket answer for this and I do not pretend to know even one of the answers, but I do know this: once you start your healing, those closest to you will not be happy, especially once you decide that they played a hand in your toxicity. They also need healing. We all need healing.

This madness has carried on for far too long and it has to stop. I mean, even the Earth is sick of this madness. She has been consistently raising her frequency for the last two years (research: schuman resonance) to ‘wake’ humanity up to what is being done. Earth wants to live. She is raising our frequencies so that humanity remembers (re-member😉) who we really are, which is love and light. We embody love, compassion and empathy and do not destroy and divide.

No thing can exist next to a high-frequency object and remain at a low frequency. For humans, we are on a high frequency planet and we are being forced to adjust to these high frequencies. They may feel uncomfortable (making us feel irritated with ourselves and those around us) but the more you resist, the more discomfort you are going to feel, so I would suggest relaxing into it and enjoying the ride because existing in a high frequency only produces positive feelings, resulting in positive outcomes in your life (and the lives of those around you).

So, if you’re someone that has decided to heal, remember these two things: it’s a journey (one step/ one day at a time) and you are a precious and valuable gift to the planet, one of billions entrusted with the maintenance of this planet (that gives and sustains us with life in return). Go full steam ahead in the knowledge that the entire universe is on your side to support you, so long as your intentions are pure.

To sign off, I’ve attached an image below of a list of rules I currently live by and I attribute to be one of the pillars of my new foundation. I hope it resonates with you as much as it did with me.  It’s from ‘Your Forces and How to Use Them’ by Christian D. Larson.