I’m surrendering to the Most High today and allowing spirit to work through me.

Yesterday, one of my managers informed me that our General Manager has scheduled the new hostess to work with me today. He apologised because the last time we worked together, she really tested my patience. And I want to be clear that it wasn’t because she is a bad person, or bad at the job. She is very young and she hasn’t been in a position like this (working in a high end restaurant).

At the beginning of her training, I had asked her whether she was familiar with the system we used and she fumbled. I honed on it immediately and told her to be completely honest about her abilities, that we were all highly skilled professionals working in this restaurant and we were here for her – but we could only help her build herself up if she was honest about her shortcomings and we would step in to guide her (each team is only as strong as it’s weakest link and I’m a Virgo and we don’t know what a weak link is).

To be honest, the first hour or so was triggering for me. I just couldn’t understand her. I kept demanding that she stay ‘present’ and I will admit that I told her I’m going to be hard on her. To her credit, she took it all with a grace that I don’t think I would have done at her age.

And then the moment happened.

She called my name and admitted that she is dealing with anxiety and that it’s a challenge for her. Boy, was I humbled! It was then that I realized that she needed me not to train her for the job, but to train her to be able to handle the job requirements.

So, going back to yesterday, when my manage, mentioned that she had been scheduled again, my instinct was not anger or disappointment, but worry. How am I supposed to help her when I was feeling exhausted (we’ve been blessed with a wonderful and successful week at the restaurant) and when I got home, I had made the decision to call out sick because I had told myself that I didn’t want to deal with that when my energy levels were on empty. Also, to be quite frank, my company does not remunerate me for training – in fact, we have a manager for that. I was not impressed and was beginning to ask myself: am I being taken advantage of?

However, this morning, while saying my morning prayers, I realised that my role is to help her. It’s not about the money, it’s not about my General Manager, my managers or myself. She needs us and that’s how (and why) she found herself with us. I’ve been so blessed that in spite of everything, I have always been sent people to help see me through whatever it was I was going through – and today is my day to give back. So I have started praying for guidance and grace to do this task in a way that not only provides benefit for the team and for her (because today is all about her), but also to the Most High.

Just a few thoughts for the day. I’ll let you guys know how it goes.

Love and light,
Victoria

Update: Everything happens for the perfect reason. On Saturday, my body was shattered (even though my mind was willing to go into work and perform my best), but since I already knew that there was going to be a hostess, I didn’t stress too much about it because the team would be taken care of.

Turns out the trainee did not show up. Apparently, the General Manager gave her too short a notice and she couldn’t make it. Good for her! The team managed though and made a bucket load of money, so all’s well that ends well, as Shakespear so beautifully said.